Finding Balance...

First day, check!!! This is a great feeling finishing a good day. Of course, it was not easy.
I read today that it is way better to finish something than starting it. It really hit me, I love to start things, the rush, the excitement; but most of them are left in the initiation process. Others, halfway and almost zero to none I finish. However, I plan on finishing this day!!!

It always seems so much easier and gratifying to go over any fast food drive thru. However, this is just an illusion. It is not easier on my budget, not easier on my body and definitely not easier on my self estime. Sabotaging will not be tolerated today. I choose to be good to myself.

This is how I choose to live today, this moment. Today I choose to be good to my body, my soul, and my world. I choose to stop my horrible thoughts when I look at the mirror and replace them with: I am fine just the way I am. I know that today that is all I can say to myself, but I am faithful that with time I will be able to say nicer things.

I have decided to try one nutritional diet each month. My challenge of the month is to give the special K diet a true shot. I have decided to try 6 different diets throught out a 6 month period. Results will be measured on weight percentage lost not actual weight lost.

As I said before success is measured on little steps and a day to day basis. Just today counts. Will I do my best effort today? I plan to stick to my plan just for today. Yesterday has passed and tomorrow has not arrived.

How is it that I can be so dedicated to work? But not dedicate any time to myself? I always say I never have time to do many things. I dont have time to call a friend, I dont have time to do my hair or have a mani-pedi, but I always seem to find time to veg out and eat out. Ironic, huh?

Jesus said it is more important to purify a cup from the inside than the outside. That I must keep in mind. It is important to care for my body, but it is so much more important to care for my soul. How do I plan to do that? Helping others, reading, meditating, sharing, and watching what comes out of my mouth. Of course, not all at the same time. I must remember, baby steps and I am learning. All it takes is a bit of effort and will to try.

I am impressed on how many horrible things can come out of such a small hole. Sometimes I get carried away and without really thinking say things I later regret. And words, cannot be taken back, once they have been said, they are out there. So I wil be careful on what I say to myself and others on this day.